This most affecting words for women when people call them are fat. How come be truly turn out ugly battle for them? It is very double standard for what we can say media recalled a true beauty, according definition by industry.
me before gain weight about 2 kilos
I have read much media tried to stirred women into the ugly battle. For one example, some media like Daily Mail sounding what is the real beauty and putting voluptous women is exactly what are men like. But, in another page in same day, the editor saying how beautiful some skinny women wearing skimpy bikinis and showing bones in every inches of their bodies (I’m started confusing though).
I’m not skinny nor fat. My boyfriend have called me with sweet nickname, using my tribe language, is bondeng (vuloptuous). I’m kind of. I was very skinny. Imagine my height only 147 centimeters and my weight only 40 kilograms.
me (left) with my friend after gain weight 2 kilos
It was because when I started eating a little bit, my friends started worried about how fat I would be since I’m short. And I had personal problems before I met my current boyfriend. I had dysfunction mentality about how ugly I am when I became a fat girl.
Now, I feel comfortable about how I look like. But, the world seems never stop to worried about my weight. My old boss came to office today. He started looking at me with weird face and saying I'm a bit fat. He liked my appearance when I'm a bit skinny. Oh well, women never win the battle, huh? I guess just need to believe myself and confidence about. It will no good to dwell on that problem. No wonder why there are many young girls have had eating disorder problem. We have to excite the world of men. We are living in it. Isn't it? *SIGH* But, for me, as long as I'm healthy and doing some workout, it would be fine.
